I've been sick for the last two weeks. I laid in bed for a long time, lost a lot of motivation and inspiration. I mustered up my energy to drive down LA for an interview for a clothing company internship. I am not sure I want the position. I want to move forward but, to somehow positively(??) use Professor Umbridge's words, "progress for progress's sake must be discouraged." I don't mean I don't want to make progress, but I don't want to trick myself into doing something I don't feel passionate about because I feel like I need to be doing anything at all. I think I want to see what else will come around and get back to what makes me tick and what makes me excited. I got out Love Looks Not with the Eyes, Anne Deniau's book of photographs from backstage at Alexander McQueen's shows. It reminded me of the reason I first considered fashion as an interest and moreso as a career: his Fall 2008 collection entitled "The Girl Who Lived in a Tree". I saw this collection in a Vogue editorial. This feature made me dream far beyond any had made me before. I was instantly in love with Alexander McQueen and the possibilities of fashion and art.